I've been working on
two projects, although it is really a piece of work I need to do for
both of them. It isn't going well.
My primary project
is a retrospective of my late wife to show family and friends. The
other project is called “Brief Moments of Tranquility”.
Both of these use videos I've shot over many years. Over the last few
weeks I have gone through my videos to log them to help me select
which shots to use.
Once I get started,
the logging goes smoothly enough. I find it difficult to set my mind
to it though and keep putting off to another day. Partly that is
because logging video is not especially exciting work. I think that
another issue is that I often find it difficult to deal with strong
emotions. In the past I've had to find ways for me to distance myself
from emotions that my films touch on. That isn't something that I can
do with a video about my late wife.
When I do work on
the videos, I generally don't feel strong negative emotions though.
Often, it is the opposite. When I watch a video where she is happy, I
find myself smiling and I feel some sense of happiness. Often that
side tracks me from my logging.
The idea for my
other project, “Brief Moments of Tranquility”,
is to compile shots I've taken of things that make me feel calmer. I
have video of rivers, snow falling, and various quiet places. Or at
least I thought I had. I haven't found as many as I thought I had.
Many of them are also quite short, and may not really work the way I
intend. Maybe, as I log more videos, I will find others.
I have started to think that I may
need to go out and collect more of these moments of tranquility.
I
don't have any kind of target date to complete these videos.
Unfortunately, that allows me to procrastinate indefinitely. I can't
put off the retrospective on my wife too long. It is hard for me to
commit to a specific time line though.
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