Retrospective and Tranquility

I've been working on two projects, although it is really a piece of work I need to do for both of them. It isn't going well.

My primary project is a retrospective of my late wife to show family and friends. The other project is called “Brief Moments of Tranquility”. Both of these use videos I've shot over many years. Over the last few weeks I have gone through my videos to log them to help me select which shots to use.

Once I get started, the logging goes smoothly enough. I find it difficult to set my mind to it though and keep putting off to another day. Partly that is because logging video is not especially exciting work. I think that another issue is that I often find it difficult to deal with strong emotions. In the past I've had to find ways for me to distance myself from emotions that my films touch on. That isn't something that I can do with a video about my late wife.

When I do work on the videos, I generally don't feel strong negative emotions though. Often, it is the opposite. When I watch a video where she is happy, I find myself smiling and I feel some sense of happiness. Often that side tracks me from my logging.

The idea for my other project, “Brief Moments of Tranquility”, is to compile shots I've taken of things that make me feel calmer. I have video of rivers, snow falling, and various quiet places. Or at least I thought I had. I haven't found as many as I thought I had. Many of them are also quite short, and may not really work the way I intend. Maybe, as I log more videos, I will find others. I have started to think that I may need to go out and collect more of these moments of tranquility.

I don't have any kind of target date to complete these videos. Unfortunately, that allows me to procrastinate indefinitely. I can't put off the retrospective on my wife too long. It is hard for me to commit to a specific time line though.

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Vocal Recording for “The Barrier”

One of the issues I have with recording a lot of voice work for “The Barrier” is the cost of renting a studio and recording engineer. I wonder if I can do that on my own.

I did my own voice over recording for “Who Shot the President”, “My Next Film”, and the original version of “My Most Difficult Case”. I was happy with what I got, but I know that I am not really a professional sound person. I don't have professional quality equipment either. Nevertheless, I think I might be able to put together something that will give me what I want.

I have a small room in the basement, that I think I could modify to use as a sound booth. A previous owner built it as a cold storage room, but I never used it as such. It has insulated walls to keep the heat out. While mainly intended as heat insulation, it also does work as sound insulation.

Now, I think it would need to be modified. Two of the walls are concrete. I would need to add some kind of sound absorbing material to reduce echos. My current thought is to get some old drapes and hang them along the walls. I use the room to store some of my film gear and files. I don't think I would need to remove them, especially if I do use drapes to control the sound.

As far as recording equipment goes, I have a laptop computer that is very quiet. I think that might work out OK. I have some old microphones, but none of them work very well. I will need to get a good microphone. I am not sure what kind of microphone I should get. I tend to go for a cheap one, but that may not be of adequate quality.

Up until now I've assumed that I would work with one person at a time. The more I think of it though, it may be better for the voice actors if I have several record at the same time. The interaction with other characters would bring out better performances. At the least, it would help to have some one read the other character's lines to help with timing. I've tried to do that myself in the past, and I was terrible at it. Besides not being an actor, I am not good at multitasking.

If I do work with more than one actor at a time, would I need to have a separate microphone for each. I might need to have a microphone mixer as well. The room could get very crowded if I have more than a couple of actors.

I need to investigate more before I commit myself to this route. Maybe I need to try some tests.

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The Mundane Things Come First

While I would like to just dive into one or another of my projects, I need to get some rather mundane pieces of work out of the way. It isn't very inspiring work and some days I just want to rest and relax.

This week I   got started on a catalogue of all my videos. I've collected quite a lot of video over the last 14 or so years, but I don't have a very good idea what I have.

There are two projects I need the catalogue for. The first is a retrospective of my wife's life and our time together. This would just be for family and friends.

The other is a project I call "Brief Moments of Tranquility". Over the years I collected shots of quiet places: snow falling, rain, flowers and lakes and rivers. I think I can put them together in an interesting way.

The cataloguing went smoothly enough. I was often side tracked by clips of my wife that I would watch over again. I think this could be quite a challenge for me.

Another mundane task that sits in wait for me is some filing. When I searched for my print of "Contingency", I moved all my film making files from the basement storeroom into our living room. A total of 16 bankers boxes of stuff.

I felt I should try to organize the files a bit better before I put them back. It one of those things I'll tend to leave to another day.

I have people coming over Monday, which does not give me much time to get this done. I better stop here and go try to get it done.

I noticed that I had huge increase in page views on my website starting about 2 weeks ago. The views are spread across several different categories that I don't think are related. I would have expected that a big jump in views would be in one category, or even one page.

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Back to Writing and Filmmaking

During the last part of my wife's illness I dropped all my writing and filmmaking projects. I want to get back to them now. It isn't just that I want to work on them; I feel that I need something to focus on now that she is gone.

Retrospective

One project I want to do is make a retrospective video about my wife. I shot a lot of video and pictures of her during our life together. I want to share that with our friends and family. I expect that will be a difficult task emotionally for me.

"The Barrier"

I want to finish "The Barrier" (http://dynamiclethargyfilms.ca/the-barrier/). I started to rewrite it last year before I stopped work on my projects. My intention is to finish the rewrite and then get some actors in to redo the dialogue. Then I can use Nawmal to redo the visuals.

I don't expect that the movie will find a very large audience; there does not seem to be a huge demand for films about transportation planning. In any event, I saw it as an exercise in how to create a feature movie. I have learnt a lot form the work I've done, and expect to learn more. I would like to have a finished version before I move onto other film projects.

I have thought of building a small recording booth in my. I do have a small room that I think I can set up as a booth. I'll need to do something to dampen the sound and get a decent microphone. I think I can use one of my computers to do the recording. The room could use some ventilation; I don't want to asphyxiate the actors.

"The Disruptors"

I want to write a novella/novelette based on my disruptor's idea. How to deal with terrorism is still a big issue these days. I have bits and pieces of material I have developed. They need to be organized before I can start on an outline. I want to follow the approach that I used to write "The 89th Key" (http://dynamiclethargyfilms.ca/stories/the-89th-key/).

"Brief Moments of Tranquility"

Over the years and travels I've collected many video clips of what I thought of as tranquil places. I've wanted to do something with those for a long while.

Recently I stumbled upon some ASMR (Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response) videos on YouTube. I found they helped me relax a little during my recent stressful times. I also noticed that some of them have as much as a million views.

I think that there would be some value if I created and shared a video composed of the brief moments of tranquility that I have collected. I need to catalogue the videos so I know what I have to work with. I need to do that anyway for the retrospective of my wife.

Short Films

A couple weeks ago, I took my film "Contingency" into the CSIF so they could show it at the $100 Film Festival retrospective. They encouraged me to get involved with short films again. I think I may do that. One project I have in mind is to make a copy of "Contingency". There is only a single copy now because I just did a work print because I had no intention to screen it more than once. I think it may just make sense to do that now.

http://dynamiclethargyfilms.ca/filmlist/contingency/

http://www.csif.org/

http://www.100dollarfilmfestival.org/festival/retrospective/

Now: To Set Priorities

I know I can't do all of these projects at once. In the past I have found that I am most productive when I devote the bulk of my time to a single project. At the moment I'm inclined to split my efforts into two projects: the retrospective of my wife and "The Barrier". I think the retrospective is the more important of the two, but will likely be very emotionally draining. I need to have a second project that I can escape to.

film, writing, $100 Film Festival, transportation planning, ASMR, terrorism, Nawmal

"Contingency" To Be Shown at the $100 Film Festival 25th Anniversary Retrospective

My movie "Contingency" (http://dynamiclethargyfilms.ca/filmlist/contingency/) is to be shown at the $100 Film Festival 25th Anniversary Retrospective next Wednesday, March 22, 2017. http://www.100dollarfilmfestival.org/festival/retrospective/

I made "Contingency" as a retrospective on the festival for the 20th festival in 2012. It looks back at the festival and the films I made for the festival over the years.

I did the film in 16mm the same way I would have done a film in 8mm, so I ended up with only one copy of the film. When it came time to give it to the festival for screening, I had to provide that one copy. The only problem: I couldn't find it.

On a personal note; my wife passed away recently after a long illness. During the late part of her illness I devoted all my time and energy to supporting her. Finding a film for the festival was a low priority for me.

The loss of my wife drained away much of my energy. It is important for me to find a new focus for my life. However, it wasn't until a few days ago that I felt up to a search for my film. It didn't take long to find the film. Naturally, it was in a place I never thought to look before. I delivered the film to the festival in time for the screening.

Without my wife to share it with, the screening isn't as enjoyable as it used to be.

$100 Film Festival, Retrospective

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Character Motivation: Pain and Illness

One of the more difficult challenges you face when you create a story is that the hero needs to be smart enough to get out of a jam, but dumb enough to get into it in the first place. I wonder if an illness could be used to explain the lapse.

I wrote about character motivation before. You can read a couple of my earlier discussions at the links at the end of this post.

I've thought about the possibility of illness as a motivation for a character's behaviour for a while now.

Can Illness or Pain Affect People's Behaviour?

Illness and pain have affected many of my own decisions. More that once I made bad decisions because some pain or illness distracted my thoughts. I remember meetings where I agreed to something I later regretted because I just wanted the meeting to end so I could go home to bed. I expect that other people have done the same thing.

I read recently that up to a third of people have to cope with chronic pain. Not everyone reacts the same way. Pain can lead some people to become very selfish, while others may have the opposite reaction and develop greater empathy for other people.

"The Crying Woman"

I can think of only one character I created where pain or illness could impact their decisions. The character Johnny in "The Crying Woman" has an illness. When I wrote the story, I didn't consciously think about that as a motivation for his character. I did use it as an explanation for why the character Mary didn't recognize him.

In the story Johnny shows a lot of empathy. When I wrote the story, I thought this was based on his previous experience with Mary. It could also be that with his experience with his illness has made him more aware of the struggles that other people have in life. This must be a factor, since his situation is much worse than hers, and yet that doesn't diminish his empathy.

Other Stories

Pain and illness do show up in many stories.

·         There are stories where pain or illness are obstacles that a character needs to overcome.

·         There are stories where pain or illness is used to create empathy for the character.

·         There are stories where pain or illness is used to remove a character from active involvement in the story.

I don't remember any stories where pain or illness is used as a character flaw to cause a character's bad decision. This may represent the limits my own knowledge. There may be many stories where pain and illness are important factors in a character's behaviour that I am just not aware of. Maybe other people can name examples.

Opportunities

This strikes me as a missed opportunity. As I noted above, many people have to struggle with pain and illness in their lives and these pains and illnesses directly impact their decisions.

I don't want to become an evangelist and push others to use pain and illness for character motivation. However, in future, I will be open to these as motivators in my own stories.

Related Posts

Don't Let Your Heroes Be Stupid

http://dynamiclethargyfilms.ca/articles/dont-let-your-heroes-be-stupid/

Can Cognitive Biases Help Me With Character Motivations

http://dynamiclethargyfilms.ca/can-cognitive-biases-help-me-with-character-motivations/

The Crying Woman

http://www.dynamiclethargyfilms.ca/stories/the-crying-woman/

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New Wall Poster for "The Barrier"

I redid a poster that I have on a wall in one scene of "The Barrier" this week. The poster isn't a big element of the story, but it is a detail that some people might find distracting if it doesn't look right.

In the open house scene Arthur stands in front of a poster that describes the barrier on Gladstone Parkway. The scene starts at the 46:18 mark in the movie: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ATcKnFAwlU0

I felt that it look primitive compared to the other posters in the scene and I wanted to replace it for the next version of the movie. While most of the others incorporate images that look like aerial photos, the Gladstone poster just has a line drawing.

I created a pseudo air photo from the same Blender file I used to create the animations of Arthur on the Gladstone Parkway. From the top, the forest looks rather sparse, so I moved and added some more trees. It still looked a bit sparse to me, but I decided that it would be enough. I may need to modify the traffic simulation video to match the look.

I created an image file of the area and then imported it into the PowerPoint file I used to create the original Gladstone poster. I had to make some adjustments to the captions on the poster so they'd be visible. I think the new poster looks better.

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